I force, I wish, I want to be Patient. But i’m wrong.

I’ve been a mother for 4 years now, and i’ve been praying, wanting, wishing even forcing my self to be a more patient mother to my kids. I am tired of yelling at them, putting them to time out, telling them not to do things that are not appropriate and lecturing them the “right” thing. And what did i get in return? I often ended up blowing up my mind and my vocal cord towards them. I ended up making my kids afraid of me almost every single day. This got me to a point where i would be frustrated thinking of what my life has turned me into.

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Di Balik Maksud Tuhan Menahan Berkat

“Kenapa ya Tuhan sampai hari ini belum juga bisa beli rumah sendiri?” “Kenapa usaha ini gagal, usaha itu gagal, sementara yang lain yang ga percaya Tuhan ya berhasil aja malah udah buka outlet dimana-mana.” “Kenapa kok sampai hari ini doa tapi belum dijawab-jawab?”

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